flygirl

we get near enough to feel the burning
the closeness is unbearable
we know, we know beyond the pretty facade
we burn when we get too close, but not close enough
and then it hurts...hits the pride

but when we are close enough
we are close enough to break
break down and cry

our love is real, don't you know
we just never made it over
over that fucking tremendously pivotal climb
and it tore my soul to pieces and i was scattered
weak and felt so very lost

in a desert alone so void of what i felt
needed to survive

but i survived with my face down dirt
and began to rise

above the earth, the clouds
my pride, mistakes, bad memories, weaknesses....
name it...

i'm rising

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

..you don't quite know yourself, until life brings you to the same place you've been to, more than once, felt the same lows and found yourself wondering 'why me?' or 'thanking life' for the lessons you think you've learnt'...and only when you're truly alone facing your aspirations are you able to understand what you're made of, who you are and then a new journey begins....and it's pretty beautiful, the kind of beautiful that makes you cry

i got in my car this morning with my mountain bike and headed for the bike track near me

i've learnt alot about myself in a few days - i have this great vision regarding my potential - it's on the extreme scale - i aim high, that sort of thing and i believe it so much that i'm already there...but the reality is i'm not - you have to do the ground work - the sweat and the pain come before the exhiliration of glory

i'm humbled...